Anna Daniela

Qual é a única coisa boa do amor?

This is a piece of a community in Orkut that call "Lie Called Love". In my own words, "There's NO Love For Broken Hearts". Why I like to say that? Because I had this feeling ten years ago, and the reason I don't belive it anymore, is an old and long friendship, that I considerate true. But the 'bastard' plays with me, in all senses of the word, and since then, I locked my heart for everybody. I have a few friends, maybe a couple males, but no one real love. And I prefer stend this way, until the rest of my life probably (hehehe), or until some crazy man say "I love you". Hahaha, bullshit, this is not exist. Maybe many men can say I love you, for all girl, in the first date day, but girls never says I love you for a man in a first date day. Specially me. I'm a difficult person and I wouldn't like to pass through all same things again. Guys, you have to be (as George Michael says), patience, to conquer me, although I think that probably you have give up. Well, read the message below and you'll understand what I'm saying.

 

Good reading!

 

"Have you already love? Terrible, isn't it? You stay so vulnerable. The chest open and your heart too. This way, anyone can enter inside and make a big mess. You raise all these defenses. You build this armor for years, for that nothing can cause any harm. Then, a stupid person, somebody like anyone else, enter on your stupid life. You give to this person a piece of yours. And he don't even asked. One day, he do something stupid like kiss you or smile. And, suddenly, your life don't belong to you anymore. Love make prisoners. He enter inside you. Consume all that is yours and let you crying in the dark. That's why, a simple sentence like 'maybe we should be just friends' or 'very clever' became pieces of glass breaking your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination or in your mind. It's a pain in the soul, in the body, a truthly pain that get inside you and brakes everything inside. Nothing should be this way. Specially love." 

 

Now, please, make a comentary abou it. I'd like to hear some opinion.

 

Thanks for your kind attention...

    Dear Friends,

   Talk about our problems is not easy. Sometimes you need to speak with someone to relife your soul. 

   So, let me share with you my problems.

   In the begining of this year, 2006, exactly 17th January, I had a DVT. For those who not understand, it means Deep Vein Thrombosis. I was taking pills with hormone 2 years ago, and in January, I was relaxing from stress of college, and something happed ( I really don't know why or how), but it was really hard to me accept it. In November of last year, I had an indication of pulmonary embolism, during a party of my cousin. Happily, nothing happed, but then, started to get worst, and my leg was like a cement. And the doctors can't see what happed, because they though that was a muscular edema. Just after a eco-doppler they can notice that the problem was really serious and I stay 10 days in the hospital. After this, I had to make blood exams all week to control the medicine. I also made an extra exam, that is called Factor V of Laiden; it's detect genetcaly is there is a response for that problem. And it was confirmed. I spent six months locked in my bed, without see the world around me... Result of the story: I'm taking medicine until today, I cannot have children, and I can have another DVT if the medicine has to be stoped.

Can you have a better life? We have to think about how our life is beautiful and healthy. But remember that not everybody have this hapiness. I cannot and this worried me very much. I have to change my life drasticaly after this DVT and I know what wait for me in the future if I don't take care of myself. Who will live with me, have to undesrtand my problems and my worries. But I hope to be happy this way, if this is the destiny. Lonely, probably, but never sad.

Thanks for hear me. And what you think about it? Am I right or wrong?

 

  It's true, I'm back!

 

  Full of energy, i'd like to write about my last experiences, some good, other bad...

 

  Take a look in the next blog, you'll understand what i'm talking about...

 

  Have Fun, everybody!

 

 

  Anna Daniela Simioni

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